This is a series of short original random stories. The prompt for these random stories is usually from random thoughts that pop up randomly in my mind. mostly because im lonely and i need a place to vent all these feelings
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Happy Tears
The next time I woke up though, I was all alone and the bed was cold and empty, no signs of anyone ever being there. None of it was real, it was all just another dream. But the tears are real, they’re all still there, though these ones aren’t happy tears…
Excerpt from “Happy Tears” on Archive of Our Own
For this story, I got the prompt just before going to sleep: “The happy tears in my dreams and imagination comes out as sad tears on the outside”
I don’t know why, but during my ~18-19 years of living I mostly felt fine about the fact that I was alone, and the fact that I never had someone as a partner never bothered me. But now I feel incredibly lonely and regret the fact that I never tried to find a partner. I do think that The Owl House and Lumity, and also all the fanfics I read had a big role in this change of thinking because I think this change happened at around the same time as I started watching The Owl House and started reading fan fiction. I guess those things kinda gave me a taste of what relationships can be like, which now I feel like I have been missing my whole life. However, I think they also kinda gave me unrealistic expectations for relationships…
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Physical Affection
Sometimes I fear I would lose her. I feel like I’m a bad partner and I would push her away. But she’s always there for me, even when I’m breaking down and falling apart.
But in the comfort of her arms, surrounded by her warmth. I’m sure everything will be alright…
Excerpt from “Physical Affection” on Archive of Our Own
This story is based on one random sentence I randomly thought (also before going to sleep): “The way she holds me tight, washes away all the aches and exhaustion from my body”
I don’t really know, but I feel like the lack of any kind of physical affection caused me to become touch-starved. So I don’t know why, but sometimes I feel like if someone just holds me right everything that hurts will just go away. Thinking about it more logically I don’t think that is very realistic at all lol
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Wanna be…
Wanna be a girl in her teenage years falling in love with her childhood best friend that she hangs out with everyday in their little village where there are a bunch of rice fields everywhere…
Excerpt from “Wanna be…” on Archive of Our Own
This one is just based on that first sentence: “Wanna be a girl in her teenage years falling in love with her childhood best friend”
This one actually kinda has a funny backstory. I was on a car trip with my parents and I got bored and something made me think of that sentence. I then started writing it and posted it (the unrevised version) to my WhatsApp Story for some reason.
I guess at that time I was really thinking about some gender stuff, and “Wanna be a girl” popped up and I wanted to post it to my WhatsApp Status so I disguised it as a little story. Later I posted it to Archive of Our Own and then a while later I revised it so it looks more like an actual story with an ending.
It’s also about the fact that I never felt what a relationship was like as a teenager. Again I think it’s partly from those unrealistic expectations from reading fanfics. I really doubt a relationship like this could happen in my religious country. Also because both characters here are girls (which I didn’t make very obvious in the story)
I don’t think I have gender dysphoria? I just maybe occasionally wish I was a girl or just not a boy… whatever it’s just another weird thing going on in my little brain.
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